I've been feeling suicidal for years but have no real reason to be

2022.01.18 13:26 s-kid02 I've been feeling suicidal for years but have no real reason to be

Im only 18 but for the past 4 years everyday has been filled with suicidal thoughts. I don't know if it's because of how horrible I used to be or the phycological abuse from my mother, I'm not saying she's a bad person, she has cancer and is on so much medication so I try to be understanding for her situation but whenever she's up at 3 am yelling at the walls saying that my sister and I's sins are the reasons she's dying it gets kinda hard. It was tough for a long time until she moved with another guy 3.5 hours away so things got easier for my dad, my sister, and I. Typing this out maybe the feeling she gave me is the reason I have suicidal thoughts, I don't know. Nothing bad ever really happens in my life except for the normal bad things that would happen to anyone but that's not an excuse for the way I feel I wish I could understand myself so that others around me could understand and possibly help.
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2022.01.18 13:26 DundermuffinX I need help picking an MXM gpu

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2022.01.18 13:26 mikijeju25 Company extremely desperate to hire me and I declined - do you think I made the right choice?

I wonder if I did the right thing? Out of the blue a man I’ve been working with to find a new job called me after weeks of not hearing from him and said his accountant is looking for a new office manager and he wants to meet me the same day (it was already 3 P.M.), which I couldn’t do but agreed to go there the next day. The next day comes around and I called them to postpone the meeting for another day since I had sudden family matters to take care of and I didn’t care as much since I literally only found out about the offer the day before.
They said next day doesn’t work but the day after is fine. On that very day though I later noticed they had tried to call me 5 times when my phone was on silent - turns out they wanted to ask me if I could come in for the interview earlier after all.
I go there and the first thing the ceo asks me is - have you forgotten to set your alarm or did you really have family matters to take care of? I looked at him quite perplexed and told him that I really did have business to take care of, which kind of already put a weird taste in my mouth.
Im not the greatest employee in the world, I’m only in my mid 20s and only have 3 years of experience under my belt. I only told them a little bit about my background and after 20 minutes they told me they want to hire me on the spot and offered me even more money than what I asked for.
The ceo has no online presence, their website has been under construction for almost 2 years and a 1,5 star rating on google from 6 reviews.
I ended up declining the offer because the whole thing reeked of desperation and insincerity and I didn’t appreciate the tone with which he started the interview. I’d rather work with someone who actually takes their time to decide that I’m the right fit.
Tl;Dr: Employer wanted to hire me on the spot and was overly zealous to hire me even though my resume isn’t at all special. Their lack of an online presence and their weird vibe during the interview turned me off from the position though
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2022.01.18 13:26 SnooDoughnuts3361 Anyone else genuinely get excited cracking open geodes? It's like Christmas! 😂😂

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2022.01.18 13:26 GreaterSecret Had my first date ever and i don't think it went well

So just had my first date and to be honest i thought it went a lot better than i had predicted but i still think it wasn't the best.
So i met her for the first time and we had a walk around the museum, she was laughing a lot (i am not sure i am that funny) and had the chance to get to know about her more.
It was all fun until we decided to get something to drink. So when we got to ordering i didnt know if i should order for her or let her order (she told me what she wanted before the waitress arrives) so i kind of order the first half for her (i think that was a mistake) and then she just ordered the rest. First half was alright i would say she had the same vibe as the start, however l think things started to slow down towards the end there was more silence (which i dont think is a bad thing but it was a change compared to the start so not sure). I wasn't sure when she was done so i kinda waited because she still had some food left on the plate, she then stated that she finished and then grabbed the bill and goes to the cashier. Now this is where i think i might also messed up, because i waited for her to finish which might of gave her the wrong idea that i wanted her to pay. I got up with her in hopes that i make the payment but she insisted so i let her be, now i wasn't sure what to say to her, so i kind said something along the lines of "i owe you one". She then gives me a gift (i haven't brought her anything which made feel bad) then we leave and that was the end of that.
So what do you guys think, what could i improve on, how can i not screw up next time?
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2022.01.18 13:26 Appropriate-Onion865 French Montana and Cock Boyz didn’t influence shit. Stop saying they did. Who tf says they were influenced by them?

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2022.01.18 13:26 Realm-Protector Interesting article about The Imbokodo and current status of Women Rugby in South Africa - (and why you can be proud of their achievements)

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2022.01.18 13:26 fatnuts_mcgee New user to FanDuel. Questions about bonus.

Opened a new account and put in $100 right before Alabama/Georgia game. Bet $5 on Georgia and hit their promo of 30-1 on the winner. Then I got another bonus and won 90 on a $50 bet. After a few more NBA and NFL bets I have the account at $325.
Thing is, my withdraw-able balance is $0. Not even my $100 original deposit is able to be withdrawn. Anyone know what FanDuel’s policy on bonuses? Do I have to cycle through my winnings a few times in order to get it out?
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2022.01.18 13:26 BMWxxx6 Jaryd Atadero

I watched Missing 411last night & in the least, they were entertaining/ interesting. Some of these cases are very strange. I do think one stood out as not so strange however:
Jaryd Atadero
Missing from a trail, found him up a mountain. Clothes removed/not torn up. Shoes in perfect condition. Yet alongside these items, broken skull piece and tooth.
As sad as it may be, it seems like he was abducted off the trail. His kidnapper carried him up the side of the mountain, removed his clothing in order to take advantage of him (his pants were inside out) and then likely smashed his head on the log after. Various animals fed on him over time. That seems more plausible than a mountain lion attack.
What are your thoughts about Jaryd or any of the other missing individuals?
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